He is by far the most impressive man ive ever met.
When he looks into my eyes and grins, I forget everything that was troubling me. He tells me everything, he answers all my questions even when he knows the answers will likely crush me. And if they do he holds me until I can speak again. Hes the guy who knows what im thinking before I do.
When I cry because I think were out of firsts, he spends the remainder of the day jumping back to that conversation, when he thinks of something we haven’t done.
He has the capability of building me up and destroying me all at the same time. Hes the only person who after a year of not physically seeing each other, a year of fights, a year of pain, a year of threats, can still give me butterflies when he runs up to me ar the airport and whispers my name into my hair.
He sings in the car louder than anyone. Hes the only person i can get so drunk that I cant see straight, argue with, scream at, slap, and when were worn out, hes the only guy I would let pull me into bed for cuddles.
Haha, after 3 hours of sleep 12 hours of traveling somehow, i stayed up talking with him until 430.
Before he went to work Monday morning he woke me up, he was in his ABU’s, he pulled me close, and told me im the person he wants to wake up next to every morning. That with my crazy, frizzy, morning hair, yesterdays make up, and in his sweats, I was the most beautiful girl he had ever laid eyes on, then he kissed me with a tenderness that took my breath away.
Ive spent this plane ride crying because the man I love, I cant be with right now. Because he lives, for now, on the other side of the country. Because hes human, and sometimes that means he’ll hurt me. But what I’m constantly forgetting is the greatness that he is. How this man has loved me underneath it all , through it all, and dispite it all for damn near 5 years. How on the daily we make plans for our future, ranging from where we will live, to when he will take me to harry potter world, to how to mske it through until he can hold me again.
Because dispite all the shit, im in love with my best friend ( this is funny if you know how similar he and my person are). And at the end of the day he loves me. He includes her in our future plans too, because he knows shes my person, and though they haven’t always seen eye to eye, they accept each other in each others lives for me.
At the end of the day, though circumstances arent what I wish they were. I really, truely, am so incredibly lucky to be so in love with him.
Russell.♥♡♥ you make my heart soar, melt, and break all at the same time, and for now, thats all I want.
We have to have the bad to make the good even better.
Leaving you tonight was the hardest thing I had to,when the plane took off I felt every nerve ending in my body scream no, but you said you’ll make it all better at Christmas.
i have a friend who won’t watch certain movies that she hasn’t seen so that (and this is a direct quote from her):
"i can see how people react when i tell them i haven’t seen it"
GODDAMNIT CINDY JUST WATCH SPACE JAM WITH ME. NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOUR CRUSADE TO BE SUPER UNFUN
Finally finally #finally with #myman #goon #florida #imissedhimsomuch
3 hour layover in #nashville gave me time to clean up #me #almostthere #floridabound